Agito Cosmos t03/ work in progress ! Fights, palmtrees, pirates, monkeys, guts, blams, everything’s in it !
Please fuck me with your Cintiq pen
watch both their faces go from “courteous TV smile” to “not paid enough for this bullshit”
It’s time for me to be open, honest and clear: This has been the shittiest year of my life. I nearly died. I was rejected, ostracized, and worst of all, censored. I grew terrified of Tumblr and hid from it for eleven months. I don’t know what the future holds, and I don’t even know for sure how I got the mental strength to come back, but I can say for certain that I missed all of you dearly. I want to be your friends again and I want to read your work. I want to breathe in the scenery from all of your photos as if I were living in them. I was never popular; hell, I don’t know if anyone will even read this post, but there’s something fulfilling about writing and leaving it here. Regardless of whether or not I get feedback, I keep coming back. There’s a passion burning inside of me that propels me to write, and for some reason I feel more comfortable with Tumblr as my outlet than a journal that would sit dusty and unread under my mattress till god knows when if I were to drop dead some day. I missed Tumblr because it was like an open window for me, except every time I look out of it I’m in a different place. Sometimes I push up the dusty screen and realize I’m in the city, sometimes I see a girl’s thigh gap and I don’t understand why everyone else won’t look away; sometimes I see two really attractive people fucking in role play costumes and I screen-cap that image for later use but never reblog it because I don’t want my parents to know I’m into that stuff.
Regardless of why I’m choosing to peek out the window again, here I am, and I think I’m ready to finally come back. If you’re new and need a friend, come talk to me. I don’t bite, though I bark a lot, and I’d love to talk to you. With a little effort and opportunity of circumstance, I might even be able to make you laugh.
But anyway, it’s time to come out of hiding and do something useful with the energy built up inside of me. I hope to avoid conforming to the standards society tried to squeeze me into when I was younger, and that may benefit myself and my blog’s material in the long run. I am officially uncensored, un-ostracized, and though I will still be rejected, it won’t be by my own bars of self-doubt.
Thank you for reading.
Oh my FUCKING GOD.